If you’re chasing movie credits to prove your worth, read this.

You don’t need more movie credits.
You need a mirror.
Here’s why the harder you chase it, the further it slips.

The harder you chase feeling good, the more broken you feel.
The more you try to be seen as enough, the more empty you feel inside.
The more you hunt credibility, the louder the echo chamber of not-enough rings back at you.

This is the Backwards Law.
Alan Watts named it.
You’ve lived it.

The Backwards Law says:
The more you need something, the more your needing pushes it away.
Happiness hides when you chase it.
Confidence collapses when you try to force it.
Creative breakthroughs vanish the harder you demand them.

And job-readiness?
It’s not what you earn by over-efforting, it’s what shows up after you stop begging for it.

You watching tutorial after tutorial, thinking you’re one shot away from being ready.
You going to networking event after networking event, hoping someone finally “sees your potential.”
You making a 3-minute demoreel showcasing everything you did at school.
You keep saying yes to ‘opportunities’ that sell themselves as growth but leave you emptier each time.

But it won’t land.
Because the void doesn’t close with proof.
It closes with permission.
To stop.
To opt out.
To stop sacrificing your sanity just to maybe feel worthy of a job.

You don’t need more evidence.
You need less pretending.

You need to see that the one who keeps performing
is also the one trying to outrun an old wound.

That the “yes” you keep giving everyone else
is the “no” you’ve never given to what’s breaking you inside.

The moment you realize you are enough,
you stop performing for approval.
You start practicing refusal.

Not from arrogance.
But from self-authorship.

From the place inside you that already knows:
There is no external win that will ever fix an internal conflict.

So you stop chasing.
You start choosing.

You start saying:
“No, actually, I don’t want to join another group project.”
“No, I don’t want to take on one more unpaid internship just to feel useful.”
“No, I don’t want to keep getting peer-pressured into saying yes to things that drain me, just because everyone else is pretending it’s a ‘foot in the door.’”

The Backwards Law is real.
And the only way out
is to stop trying to “become” enough.

And realize you already are.